ripping off the band-aid

Today, I'm headed back home.

I've gone through such a crazy mix of emotions the last 3 weeks. From the excitement I could hardly to contain to frustration to homesickness and loneliness to peace and contentment.

I am constantly reminding myself of the truth about my situation. I am going to be leaving my geographical home in just a few short months.

Being away for almost a month has given me the chance to taste a little of what it will be like being so far from everything that I have had around me my whole life. It's not like I haven't been away from home ever before, but it's always been with the assurance that I would be back.

Being down south and being able to visualize my life there has made all the difference in the world. At this point, I am ready to go. But I'm afraid that as I head back north and back to everything and everyone I know so well and love, that it will be like putting the band-aid back on that I feel like i've proverbially ripped off.

It's easier for me to shut down all the way than to do it gradually. I'm sure it's that way for a lot of people. So the next 4 months will be a huge process for me... it's going to be so hard knowing that I'll be leaving and constantly being faced with what I won't have for long.

However, even among all these emotions, I am so excited to be getting back home (even if i will be welcomed by rain and humidity without heat!) I can't wait to get back to my "office" (which is currently in a state of utter disaster, and get back into my groove. There will be much more blogging from me and many more pictures.

I have been trying to sort through the ones i have right now, on my laptop, but it's making me crazy. So I've only done a few. I am planning to do more of a post that tells all about Wilmington later on when I get home :)